The power went out.

Yo

2008-02-01T22:38:39Z

Hey everyone, if you're not already friends with my other journal, Carnival_Goth, I'd suggest friending it if you want to hear about my life... I don't think I'll be posting on this journal too often...

I'm going to work on reading everyone's entries from the past month, but I'm not sure if/when I'll get to anything, so if you feel like posting a summary in a comment here, that'd be great ;)

less than three you all.

This is goodbye....

2007-12-21T02:47:21Z

Well. I was thinking the other day about how this guy pledged to leave the Internet for a year to fufill his life better in other ways.
I was also thinking about how my grades sucked.
One and one make two, right? I don't know if this is my new year's resolution so much as a 'need-to-fix-myself' resolution, but here we go...

I'm going off the Internet for the month of January to see if it affects my schoolwork and quality of life.

Obviously, at Madeira you can't just abandon the Internet, so I will be checking my school e-mail, but here's a list of things I hope to cut out:
Livejournal (Carnival_goth and dorrie_Rockstar)
Myspace (/punx58 and /umwh4t)
Facebook (dorrie McQ)
Xanga (carnival_punk)
AIM (MarinaCIA226, Iluvlettuce, Dorrieinspain, Whatername58, whatever other AIM addys I have hanging around)
Non-school e-mails (carnival.goth@gmail.com, umwh4t@gmail.com, any other emails I have hanging around)
Webcomics
Body Mod websites
Wikipedia for fun
Jeffree Star

You can still get in touch with me via my school e-mail, but I hope to keep that to pretty much just school stuff. Of course, if something drastic happens, of COURSE e-mail me. This whole attempt to get offline is not to stay away from my friends, it's to stop wasting time reading stories about random peoples' tattoos when I should be studying.

See you all in Febuary! My final appearances on the Internet 'till then will be on my other livejournal, carnival_goth.

HAVE A FANTASTIC EID, CHRISTMAS, NEW YEAR, BIRTHDAYS, and anything else I've forgotten....

Your friend,
Dorrie.

EDIT: 12/24/07
BE JEALOUS.

[[Yeah, that would be two versions of 'me' if you remember the lamexcore 'my life as band fic' slash. Anyways I met the members of Kill Hannah on Friday night :D ]]

NaNoWriMo 2007

2007-11-08T04:03:56Z

Lauren just brought up a really valid point- "You're just doing this for yourself, it's not like there's a prize, so if you're not having fun with it, what's the point?"

It is with great regret [I never wanted to be a quitter!] that I place my NaNoWriMo 2007 on indefinate hiatus.

I just have too much to do. And this was just another stress. I wasn't enjoying it and so I'm not going to worry about it. If I, later this month, actually want to write it, I will pick it back up again, but the past few days it's just been a chore hanging over my head like folding laundry, doing a french essay, a chem lab report, history ID's. I can't let it eat my life.

I'm sorry.
[November 7th, 2007, 11:00 pm]

Hiatus is OFF. Nano is ON. Megan is amazing and I can't just quit!!!
[November 8th, 2007, 3:41 pm]

It's National Coming Out Day.

2007-10-11T14:42:11Z

I'm Bisexual.

This is the label I choose to give myself. I'm posting it here, even though I'm pretty sure you've all figured out by now, but I'm posting it here because quite frankly I'm kind of scared to post it on facebook. I know you're supposed to be proud, but I don't want to shove it in people's faces.

pooosting?

2007-09-27T02:40:43Z

right, I don't really use this account that much, maybe when we get more time, or perhaps I'll use it to journal my NaNoWriMo

But otherwise, go friend Carnival_goth
Because I post there
but not here.

Madina Lake- House of Cards

2007-09-05T16:17:56Z

"It's late at night the world's asleep
And I'm trying not to think
I take some pills cos my mind bleeds
I'm thinking "What is wrong with me?"
Because the only thing I know
About honesty
Is every lie I told
That you believed

I'm afraid, To be alone
I'm afraid, That one day you'll find out

And you'll be amazed
At the secrets I keep!
You'll be amazed
At my mouth full of lies!
I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's a flame in a house of cards.

Now I can't look you in your eyes
Because the guilt is killing me
I try disconnect my heart again
Just so I can breathe
I wanna be myself again
But i just can't cos...

I'm afraid, To be alone
I'm afraid, That one day you'll find out ...

And you'll be amazed
At the secrets I keep!
You'll be amazed
At my mouth full of lies!
I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's a flame in a house of cards.

It's such a shame what I've become
After years of breaking down
My whole life has come undone
Cos I'm trying to fake it all
And I know that you love someone
But that someone isn't me
Isn't me
No

You'll be amazed
You'll be amazed
You'll be amazed
You'll be amazed

And you'll be amazed
At the secrets I keep !
You'll be amazed
At my mouth full of lies !
I'm too afraid to come clean!
My life's a flame in a house of cards.

You'll be amazed
You'll be amazed"

My life used to be very much embodied by this song.
Now it's not. [Still a good song though!]
Thank you.

A year and some change.

2007-08-29T00:26:54Z

August 14, 2006
That's when I started this journal.
I was going to do a one-year anniversary post, but I didn't get to it in time. Well.

I've changed a lot, but I think everyone [especially teenagers!] changes over a whole year. So I'm not going to make a list of X number of new piercings, Y other asthetic diffrences, Z diffrences in friendships.
Instead... have some cake.

I've been bothering you for a whole year now. W00t.

And because this is my journal, have

This is what's making me happy right now:

Yup. Bye now.

it's actually quite true.

2007-08-23T23:58:49Z

Please help me?

2007-07-07T19:22:57Z

No, it's not for a good cause, just me being selfish. I really really want to see this band called Escape The Fate play 10 minutes longer at the Warped tour date I'm going to... It takes about 10 seconds, all you have to do is click on the link, click on Escape The Fate, demand it, put in your e-mail box (They don't spam if you don't check the box) and hit submit or whatever.

Love you all! Thanks!

Well, let's see what we get...

2007-06-15T05:37:53Z

Post anything that you want, and post it anonymously.
Anything.
A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love - anything. Be sure to comment anonymously and honestly. Comment twice if you'd like.
Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say.

--by the way, all you "others who I don't even realize read my LJ", my journal's friends-only now. It's been so for a while, I think this is my first public post in a couple months. Go to the root journal and comment on the disclaimer to be added... I can't remember if I ever announced so I figure this is a good enough place. -

BEST WEEK EVAR

2007-04-28T21:40:58Z

Ok, so I had the BEST WEEK EVAR. Buckle your seatbelts, cos this is gonna be a really really long entry!

>>NOTE! THIS IS A WORK IN PROGRESS ENTRY!!! IF YOU WANT THE WHOLE THING CHECK BACK LATER!!!! IT IS NOT DONE YET!!!!<<<

Sunday-Water fight
Monday- FOUNDERS DAY
Tuesday- Special schedule
Wednesday- Nose piercing
Thursday *byebye to nose piercing*

aaaaannndd.... the crowning glory of the BEST WEEK EVAR. I went to a show of a little band called MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE and THE BLACK PARADE. (The band seems to have an identity crisis, and doesn't know which to call themselves, as they played one set as The Black Parade and one as My Chemical Romance. [read: they played TWO SETS]

On friday after school I got dressed as a scene kid. Black&White nail polish, hard rock copenhagen T-shirt, tight jeans with zippers all over them, and lotsa CBRs in my ears. I grabbed Sabeen and Kristine, and Kristine's mom was kind enough to drive us to a little town called cumberland maryland. There we dined on Subway and made our way to the Merriwether Post Pavillion. I didn't know what to expect, but I knew there would be a looong line.

Ohhh boy. Long lines got nothing on this. Airports got nothing on this. Amusment parks got nothing on this. It was a fucking MASSIVE line. 2-5 people thick, and litterally longer than the eye could see...... FUCK! We were gonna have to wait in line for like a YEAR!!! After amusing ourselves with... actually I don't remember... for about 10 to 15 minutes, Kristine saw some people going down a path to our left, so she was like "let's see where they're going!!" Sabs and I didn't want to leave our place in line, so we let Kristine scout it out. 2 minutes later- phone call. "Get up here! NOW!!!" Turns out a baby line had started next to the MASSIVE one, and we were in in less than 2 minutes. Follow streams of people. Where's the actual stage? No one really knows. We go under this huuge tarp thing..... and find the stage. Do we take seats? WTF? I thought we had general admission. Doesn't that mean mosh pit? Overhear obese goth girls talking about wristbands. What? You need a wristband to get into the pit. How does one get one of these wristbands? Then a stream of people gets into the pit and immediately attaches itself to the bar. ohhhkayyy..... follow line of people. See people handing out wristbands. Must. Get. Wristbands. NOT SETTLING FOR A SEAT!!! Get wristbands. Go into pit. Front&Center, biotch, and about 7-8 people away from the bar.
AAAAGHHHHH!!!! Finally it hits me. I'm going to see My Chemical Romance. Today. I'm going to see GERARD WAY onstage, TODAY.
>>But first we have to wait in the growing and sardine-y pit. For an hour until Muse comes on. During this hour, we
~ Met some 8th graders behind us named Jada and Maya... talk about junk with them, play animal concentration with them, establish myself as an experienced concert-goer (HA) with them, then promptly lose them.
~Squirm forward in crowd until only 4-5 people from bar. Get waaaay too close to that kid with the pimples. Like... woah.
~Lots of push wars going on. The back of the crowd would push towards the front to try to move forward {think about it guys, it doesn't work that way.} so the front of the crowd would push back.Then the left side of the crowd would push towards the right, and the right would push towards the left. We got ~almost~ knocked over like 405989823 times.

Muse played. Blahblahblahblah. I don't know ANY of their songs, so I concentrated on surviving and getting my body temprature down and getting used to the pit. It was... not exactly brutal, but not a cake-walk.
Sometime during Muse, Kristine got in front of pimple-man, and a guy named "Large" gets in front of me. Like no shit it said "Large 6" on the back of his shirt. He was REALLY SWEATY. I mean, yeah, we were all sweaty, but he smellled like a goddamn sea-salt factory. Oh yeah did I mention he was FAT? and LARGE? and stepped on my feet?

Between Muse and MCR, we met a girl who groped me. A lot. Like, she rested her hand in where my cleavage would be if I had any, and just sort of rested it there. "Um, excuse me?" Turns out she was wearing flip-flops. WHAT THE HELL???? WHO WEARS FLIP-FLOPS IN A MOSH PIT??

THE BLACK PARADE (the part you've been waiting for!!!)
SoOoOoO, the pit lights went out. Actually, all the lights went out. SCREAMING!!! SCREAMING!!!! WAAAAAHHH!!!! OOOHHH!!!! SQUEEEELLLL!!! WE LOOVEE YOU GERARDDDD!!! EMM CEE AREEEE!!!! EEEEEEEHHHH!!!!! AAH GET OFF MY FEET!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!

The End. "So come one, come all to this tragic affair, wipe of your makeup, what's in is despair...."
Lights come up and there's a hospital bed on the stage. Someone crawls off it, dressed in a white hospital gown... this someone has short black hair, and WHITE skin. Not pale, but WHITE, as in vampire-white, chalk-white, stage-makeup white. He's holding a microphone and it's obvious that the haunting voice coming through the speakers is his.... we're so close we can see him clearly... it's GERARD WAY!
"I DISCOURAGE YOUR SMILES! I EXPECT YOU ALL CRY!!!"
The curtain falls, the hospital gown falls, the bed dissappears, the Dorrie gets pummled and groped, The Black Parade is onstage and ROCKING OUT.

Dead! Either between The End and Dead!, or after Dead!, Gerard goes "Hello Maryland! Marilyn! Actually I think I'll call you Marilyn, because... I LIKE THAT NAME. HOW ARE YOU, MARILYN???" [[then later, when I can't remember, he goes "Marilyn, sweet sweet Marilyn!"]]
This is how I dissappear
The Sharpest Lives The mosh action was really really intense.
Welcome to the Black Parade You could tell that this was a single, it was one of the few songs for which everyone in the pit knew every word. It was like we were in church or something, except screaming in unison "I'm just a man, I'm not a hero, I'm just a boy, who had to sing this song!" Instead of saying demurely "amen" but it had a similar feel. Also, push wars happened a lot during this!
I don't love you
House of Wolves
Cancer Dorrie's ultimate emo moment!!! I cried!!! YES!! I shed tears in the pit during this song! It's already an emotional song for me, but after hearing Gerard say "This is a song about a disease that affects so many people not just in america, but all over the world, and I'm sure it's affected some of you..." I just couldn't take it. To hear his voice sing the words, "All my hair's abandoned all my body, all my agony" It made me think of Mrs. Spahn, and how strong she is in spite of it all, "Know that I will never marry, baby I'm just soggy from the chemo, but countin down the days to go..." I just stood there, cell phone aloft, and cried. I'm also pretty sure Gerard made eye contact with me. "Oh yeah, fangirl crying in the pit, again..." But... it was... soooo amazing.... wow.....

Mama Gerard def. strutted around at the beginning of this song, sexy as hell... and there were flamethrowers behind the drum risers that came on near the end, scorching all of us, really intense...
Sleep
Teenagers Oh yeah, did I mention I CROWDSURFED during this song?
"The Black Parade only has 2 songs left now, and then you'll have to put up with the likes of MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Quite frankly? Their language is ATROCIOUS, they're horrible dressers!!!"
Disenchanted
Famous Last Words

My Chemical Romance
I'm Not OK
Cemetary Drive
Give 'Em Hell Kid
This is What They Do To Guys Like Us in Prison
Helena "Marilyn, you've been a bad bad girl...." I also crowdsurfed here, in fact, that's how all 3 of us got out of the pit. Yeah you read that right, Sabeen crowdsurfed!!! But I got flipped over, it was really freaky, one moment I could see my feet in front of me then I was face down and my head was over a blank space where there was no crowd, it was a total "omg I'm about to die and someone's hand is on my boob" moment". But then the security guard grabbed me and yanked me out of there. I can't wait to surf a larger crowd, this was over way too fast!

After all this we went to kathsan's house and craaashed. I didn't throw up, miraculously, but I threw up the morning after. W00t w00t.
Back to school. Back to bed.

Wake up. Computer. Ellllljay.
MORE LATER!!! I PROMISES!

Peeektures

2007-03-08T03:34:25Z

I've never used the picture-post-thinghy... and I just dumped like 400 pictures off my camcam, so I figgered I'd stick 'em up here. NOT ALL 400 LOL just some.
You may steal them for art purposes if you wish, but please comment and let me know... I really really like some of the island ones, and i figure others might too, so you can use them but tell me and credit! Thankee!

Let's start off with a pic from the musical, (yes, these pics are not going to be in chronological order hahahah this is just to toy with those of you who are slightly OCD) This is me at my happy desk being all stage-manager-y. The masking tape under the window, BTW, says Tech = Life.

Remember the "Social Experiment" slash North Dorm outing I told you about a while ago? This is me as a prep. W00t. I don't have any pics from the second one where I went as an emo boy.... wait I didn't even write about that! Oh well it wasn't that exciting.

I swear this is the only kill hannah pic I'll post... but not the only one that mentions KH!!! (Look carefully at the prep pic)
But yeah. NHFX-M, DEC 22 06. Learn it, live it, love it. (BTW I think I want that tattooed "nhfx-m, 12/22/06" everyone would ask what it meant XD )

I just thought this was a cute pic of me, for those of you who haven't seen me in a while... (wait, that'd be... one or 2?) That's stage manager war paint, FYI. and the third and 4th KH logos. ~NOTE: IF YOU SEE SOMEONE WHO LOOKS LIKE THIS SHE IS A STAGE MANAGER AND SHOULD BE TREATED WITH UTMOST RESPECT.~

My semi dress. w00tage. OK enough pics of me, geez, this isn't myspace or anything. On to pwetty island pics!!!

This is a gorge pic I took over winter break, on the island of St. Johns. I looooove it. Do you?

I am in love with the color of the sky in this pic, also the stone work is AMAZING. This was, I believe, the distillery at a sugar plantation/rum making place in St Johns.

OLY shit I love this pic... doesn't it feel like one of the fake backgrounds that comes with your new computer???? I can't believe something like this came out of my camera. Also on St John's, but I forgot the name of the bay. It was close to the Donkey Diner ("Kick Ass Food") though.

I don't take pics from St Thomas too much any more, it's kind of a been there/ done that thing. But this is a view of the sunset from the poolhouse. sheet, Zawhi's the only one who knows where that is.

Same sunset, through the leaves of the beanpod tree. I love shadowplay so this pic makes me happy.

BTW none of the pics were edited, they're straight from my camera to the comp. Enjoy and comment please :)

Someone please tell me what the hell they're doing

2007-03-01T04:45:43Z

I just started typing and this came out... I like it, but what the hell are my characters doing?

"“Vous blaguez, non?” (You’re joking/kidding, right?)I tossed my head, flicking my black-dyed hair out of my left eye, where it was prone to falling.
“Non, Mec, je ne blague pas. C’est le vérité.” (No, dude, I’m not joking. It’s the truth.) He assured me that he wasn’t joking. I raised an eyebrow. Should I believe this weird French guy? I wasn’t good at judging the possible sarcasm in his voice because French wasn’t my first language. I peered into his brown eyes. He shifted his posture, uncomfortable of being looked at that way. If he was serious, I could be rich and famous in a day. If he was joking, my only loss was whatever bribe it took to get in there.
“Ok, je vous donne l’argent, mais si vous étés fausse…” (Ok, I’ll give you the money, but if you’re wrong…) I left the ending open, an unspoken threat. I pulled a twenty-euro bill out of my pocket, and handed it over. The guard made a face, like “what could a skinny emo boy do to me?” but he turned and stuffed the bill in his pocket. I followed the large man through a door labeled “crew only”. I wasn’t crew, but I was dressed to blend in. An underweight kid like me, dressed all in black, including my ‘girl jeans’, could easily be a gofer or a roadie. "

What is he joking about? Who is the main character? Where are they? Why is the bribe only E20? HELP SOMEBODY!!! THIS IS OPEN TO ~your~ INTERPRETATION!

dorrie_rockstar @ 2007-02-27T08:38:00

2007-02-27T13:41:22Z

I got offical permission to see Papa Roach/ Kill Hannah!!!!!

I was on an adrenaline rush yesterday which kept me up 2 hours later than usual, which was ok, because I was IMing my friend from Episcopal, this school by mine. We met in Writers' Sociey, and were paired so we could exchange/ critique our writing work, but we ended up talking for 2 hours about music and tech. Nice, eh? His name is James/ Battle/ Lord Jimboh The Great. I'm sure you'll be hearing a lot about him in the next couple of weeks.

OH.MY.GOD!

2007-02-24T15:25:52Z

I GOT A RING SISTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU LJF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(that was right, wasn't it? lol)

dorrie_rockstar @ 2007-02-17T13:22:00

2007-02-17T18:23:25Z

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I ACTUALLY KNOW WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE!!!

2007-02-17T04:53:09Z

www.fullsail.com

Zawhi, come with me? I'm going to major in Show Production and Touring. If parents say no or cut me off, I'm going to find a way to pay for it myself, damned if I don't.

/double snow day

2007-02-14T20:32:19Z

No School TUESDAY AND THURSDAY!!!

(and I 'plan' on being sick tomorrow and going to the health center :D )

stolen meme... snow day boredom

2007-02-07T21:13:52Z

Movie of your life theme song thing... I've done it before many times but this is a diffrent version!
Set your iTunes on "randomize" and have at it.

1) Opening Credits:
Modern Swinger- The Pink Spiders
[HELL YES! I'm "pretty as a car crash, sexy as the stinger of a hornet in your arm"... AWESOME] [no sarcasm... I truly think that's cool]

2) Waking Up:
Amazed- The Offspring
[Um, I've never heard this song before.... first lines are "sometimes I think I'm gonna drown because everyone around is so hollow and I'm alone" I like it.... it sort of works for me waking up... I can picture it now... roll out of bed, hurt myself jumping off, go to bathroom... wash my face here "give me one more day and I feel amazed just to see tomorrow" :D ]

3) First Day At School:
Track 06- Penis Punx
[This is from a local band... it's not actually called Track 06.... and I've never heard it before... it's really odd... screamoish punk with really bad music.....]

4) Falling In Love:
Believe Me Natalie- The Killers
[Uhhhhhhh....... "listen natalie, this is your last chance to find a go-go dance to disco now" um. Right.]

5) Fight Song:
Let Your Troubles Roll By- Carbon Leaf
[WHAT?!?! Am I a pacifist now?!?! totally wrong]

6) Breaking Up:
Drunk On Shadows- H.I.M
[I love H.I.M. but this song isn't a breakup song... waittaminute... "On her once white wings, She will be carrying the weight of our deeds, And she bleeds for love, Forever gone, drunk on shadows and lost in a lie" I guess if I was to date a girl and break up........................................................................................................................................................................................................ that's not happening any time soon.] [and no, I don't know what the immense ammounts of dots mean either. Analyze it and let me know.]

7) Prom:
Hurry Up And Wait- The Loved Ones
[this is some odd ska song Charlotte gave me... it's not prom-y.]

8)Normal Life:
You Don't Want To Play With Me Blues- The Boyfriend
[NO!]

9) Making babies:
Trucker Hat- Bowling For Soup
[this is just not my day. At least it's a love song?]

10) Mental Breakdown:
Saying Sorry- Hawthorne Heights
[Finally something that a l m o s t makes sense....]

11) Driving
Ma Princess Du Juillet- Gilbert Becaud
[My roommate just started laughing hysterically. Is that a bad thing?]

12) Flashback:
Leader Of The Pack- Best of The 60's
[WHAT?!?!?! Yeah, I'm flashing back to the 60's, where I date a motorcycle man who dies in a car crash.... great...]

12) Getting back together:
My Friends- Red Hot Chili Peppers
["My friends are so depressed I feel the question of your lonlieness" um.... this is not my day.]

12) Wedding:
? - Rammstein
[Yeah, this is German techno/metal. I'm starting to think my computer doesn't know me... at all] [Dani says I need therapy because this is my wedding song... I'm totally gonna play this at my wedding... oh wait I'm not getting married.]

12) Birth of Child:
Ripcord- Radiohead
[I don't listen to this stuff.... "Soul destroyed with clever toys for little boys, It's inevitable, inevitable, it's a soul destroyed" Eep did I just read that wrong?!?! My soul gets destroyed by a little boy's clever toy.... I'm so perverted.]

13) Final Battle:
Light In Your Eyes- Sheryl Crow
[um. no? My computer hates meeeeeeeeeeeeee.... wait.... what about juxtoposition... happy country music in a rainy showdown... wait... it still doesn't work.]

14) Death Scene:
Warning Sign- Coldplay
[At least it's depressing...?]

15) Funeral Song:
Si je pouvais revivre un jour ma vie- Gilbert Becaud
[Um.... it's french.... and happy... but it's about re-living a day of my life?]

16) End Credits:
(Can't Get My) Head Around You- The Offspring.
[At least it's good music.]

That was bad... That's all I have to say.

“Obviousment, il ne parle pas Anglais. Stupide.” (an excript from my nano, which I am now editing)

2007-02-05T15:56:13Z

“Voulez-vous Pret?” He asked us, referring to the store Pret A Manger. We’d eaten lunch from there, but I was still up for more. I translated for Darlene and Rob. “He’s going for food, he’s going to get sandwiches and stuff from Pret A Manger. It’s good. Want some?” I asked them, and Darlene immediately started digging in her pocket. “If he’s back with it when we come down with the Avian, I don’t see a problem with having a bite… We haven’t had lunch.” She pulled out a twenty-euro bill. She handed it to Matt, who tried to give it back, but then she said in a scary voice, “Lunch is on the Watchers.” And refused to take the money back. I requested something vegetarian, or vegan if possible, Rob asked for chicken, and Darlene said she’d take anything except fish. Matt shrugged and loped off to get our food. “Nice b-boyfriend you’ve got there.” Rob said, and both Darlene and I fake-punched him on the shoulder. “Sorry!” He said. Then we all turned to look at the ominous building we had to enter. Five stories of sketchy… sketchiness. I opened the door again and pulled out my gun. I remembered I only had two bullets in the Kel-Tec, and I’d left the Glock in the bathroom. The extra bullets were still on the roof from when I’d taken the case off my belt. Shit! I was always doing stupid things like leaving my stuff everywhere. “Hey, either of you guys got extra bullets for a concealable? There’s only two in here…” Rob nodded, and headed to their car. There was a packet of extra bullets in his hand when he returned. I thanked him, and stuck it in my back pocket. Once we were all into the building on the sketchy first floor, Darlene and Rob drew their guns, too. We went to the staircase on the far side of the room. Darlene took the leader position, I followed her, and Rob picked up the tail. This is how we made our way up the stairs, completely ignoring the second, third, and fourth floors. Normally, there would be stairs continuing from the fifth floor to the roof, but the stairs just stopped on the fifth. Darlene looked back at me and I shrugged, in a “I’ll just follow you” sort of way. She led on. The fifth floor was a lot like the first: one huge open room, the only difference being that this one was a lot more gross. There was a huge open hole in the ceiling, with pink fiberglass, shreds of wood, and those icky ceiling tiles hanging out around it. Rob picked a piece of wood off the floor, a wooden rod half an inch in diameter and four feet long. I still wonder why there was a wooden rod there. It seemed that it would be much more in place in a carpenter shop. He used the rod to poke at the edges of the hole: A few pieces of fiberglass fell onto his head.

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... ow.

2007-01-20T05:44:54Z

YAY!

I have another hole in my head!!!

Ouch.

(3rd lobe piercing done by my roommate, the girl down the hall, and I... and it HURTS.)

I wanna be a real heart-breaker

2007-01-19T22:17:55Z

I am bored, in rehearsal.........................................
"It's never too late to fall in love" is the worst song written ever. Goodlyness though, I got new usericonspicturesthinghys. Mat, Greg (outline) and a wall. Yeah, that's right I write on walls, take pictures and badly photoshop them. Gotta problem!?
Calm down, the wall's in my bathroom at home wand the wall is made out of chalkboard :).
Zawhi, you will recognize in the upperleft, the "dorrie ownz the WORLD" that you wrote. Other than that.
I am bored
BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Maybe I really am messy...?

2007-01-07T14:10:08Z

My roommate doesn’t seem to mind that much, but everyone else in the world seems to think I live in a state of complete chaos and disorganization. I’m starting to think they’re right. After several thuds waking me up in the wee hours last night, I finally took inventory of what was in my bed, that could possibly make so much noise, this morning. After stuff falling out last night, this is what I found:
-4 books: Vegan cookbook, Anarchist literature, Zine about subbing for mentally disabled kids, and book about the American Indie underground, 1981-1991.
-3 green apples… wtf?
-2 cell phones: one doesn’t work [dosen’t even have the right time on it], not exactly sure why it’s in my bed, the other one had an excuse, I was using it for an alarm.
-A watch, a sweatband, and a wristcuff
-A laptop. Yeah, that’s right. I ran the power cable up the wall and it lives here now (yeah, I’m writing this from my bed)
-The tool used to take the wheels or plugs out of heelies (but no wheels, plugs, or heelies)
-2 boxes of Pocky
-A pair of Converse
-At least 3 socks
-Random T-shirt I don’t recall wearing recently
-A Kill Hannah dogtag on a broken chain
-A pair of glasses
-The usual bed-stuff, like 3 pillows, sheets and a huge comforter
-Oh yeah, me, a 5’7’’ girl

How did it fit? By the way this is not a big bed, it’s a standard-issue twin bed, barely long enough for me to lie down on.
Comment please: Which things are most surprising?

dorrie_rockstar @ 2006-12-25T21:19:00

2006-12-26T03:19:03Z

Um, I'm not going to post about my bigg present(s) because I'm making Zawhi guess, but let me just say these:
The Pink Spiders are a.lot better in the recording studio then they are live. I actually have some (teeny bit) of respect for them now. But I consider live performance to be 9384759834 times more important than studio, so the respect remains about the size of my little toenail. But it's there. "Hey hey little razorblade..."
The Red Hot Chili Peppers are also amazing. I'm still trying to figure out what song it was, when I saw them live, that had that amazzzing slap bass on it. I'm p'o'd that I can't figure it out, it may just be a slappy version of a normal song. I wish they'd harmonize more.
Criss Angel kicks ass. Once more.

Zawhi, here's a hint. (actually, someone else can guess too) You're guessing three things, or three sets of things.
Hint for thing one: I had something a lot like it before (this could also go for thing/set 2) but I was mad at it because it was old.
Hint for thing/set two: They don't work on carpet. (this also goes for thing 3)
Hint for thing three: Think bad pop music from 6th grade featuring a boy and a girl. I'm the boy.

They know that it's the end.

2006-12-24T16:03:38Z

So Yeah, I finally got around to posting the end of my Kill Hannah concert review.thing.

FINALLY! KILL HANNAH TOOK THE STAGE! Well, no, actually first they had people dressed as elves throw candy canes into the audience. I cought one and stuck it in the waistband of my pants :D . RADXCORE... until some landed on the ground. Guess what happens when people step on candy canes? They break, into thousands of sticky little pieces. Gross! From then on, our feet stuck to the ground. but then. The drummer, Elias, came on. It occurs to me that We'd seen him earlier, standing in the back of the room: I recognized his red mohawk. Also, we saw Lil' Johnny (the schmexxxxy guitarist) standing in the balcony during Toilet Papers. Oops, I mean The Pink Spiders. Anyways, drummer comes on. He sat in his drum kit (an amazing thing, btw, it was really big with a bar in front for people to stand on ) and started drumming along to the random techno that was played on the speakers. During this time, some random girl in the audience sat down on the floor. Whore. (See Zawhi's for more rants about her). But anyways, they throw candy canes, then the stage fills up with fog, and the spikey things on either side inflate. RadXcore. The intro track starts playing, but you can't hear the "be aware of your past" over the sound of screaming. Yeah, we pogoed. To the intro track. The bassist invades the stage and stands at the very front so we can see him without foggyness, and at least 15 cameras come out of nowhere and take pics of him. Dunk dunk dunkdududunk dunk dunk... he plays one note over and over. Enter guitars. I felt the vibe get more and more tense and excited around me, and we pogo higher and higher like we're not gonna come down...
MAT ENTERS. "MERRY FUCKIN' CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!" (screams)
Sex on a stick. He's wearing his classic kh jacket w/military logo on the left sleeve, and as usual his hair looks like a bird could be living in it. This is the setlist (as far as I can remember)
Opener (actually it's called Life In The Artic)
Boys and Girls (this was probably the most intense pogoing action I've seen. EVer)
Believer
Lips Like Morphine
Ten More Minutes With You
Black Poision Blood
Sick Boy ("We keep getting requests for this song... we haven't played it in four years... we never want to play it again..." [enter roadie dressed as santa] "Have they been Naughty Or Nice?" Santa: "Naughty." Mat: "I think we'll give them a present anyways..." Then they played sick boy, an amazing song)
From Now On
Crazy Angel
Love You To Death
Raining All The Time
Let Me Out (Smashing Pumpkins Cover, I think)
New Heart For Christmas
Kennedy [these @$$holes in front of us tried to mosh.. I really wanted in on it but Zawhi dragged me away]
~After that we left to get my T-shirts, we were about to die anyways.. We went back up after to catch
Kill Hannah and
Welcome To Chicago Motherfucker [from the balcony and then we went back down for this one... I LOVE THIS SONG.]

I'm really too lazy to write more. He kept going "This is the best, hottest, sweatiest, loudest concert EVER!" and he sounded serious. Roadies kept squirting water on the crowd and there were fans going full blast on us the whole time. A-FUCKING-MAZING.
what can I say, I had the time of my life. Best night ever.
The white, stretch limo came and picked us up.
people stared.
I got a really cool hoodie and a dogtag.
I think I killed Zawhi's sister.
I came home and was sick. Gross. But it was worth it.
My life is complete: I saw Mat Devine sing the words "I tounge kissed a cokefiend at the after hours" And "cause in her plastic flower garden theres no room for more plastic flowers". Props to you if you know what songs those are from, and more props to you if you know that they're my favorite.

I need a new heart for christmas.
Cause he broke it all apart and put it back together again
He shook me oh, so hard an put me back together again.

Thank you so much for coming with me Zawhi.